Nigel Mohammed is a teacher, writer and a mentor who has worked with men, done presentations and talks, and has been running men's groups in the UK for decades. He provides mentoring and resources for local men's groups, ministries and churches. Nigel has also taught courses and provided development workshops for missionaries and leaders overseas and in the UK. He has worked with the homeless in UK and abroad, and has helped young people at risk of trafficking in Nepal. Nigel's calling is to equip men to live in a 'story bigger than themselves' and he offers his resources both in person and online via his website LifeQuestTruth. Some of you remember Nigel from the previous episode (check out track #0012). As for me personally, Nigel has had a huge impact on my life; he was running the first men's group I was a part of, more than a decade ago, and became my mentor. It was Nigel who once told me, in an act of brutal honesty, that sooner or later I would have to stop running from my inner pain and face it... Recently, we sat down again and recorded the second chapter of the journey through Nigel's life-story. In a way that feels somewhat counter-cultural during these times of frantic shallowness, of clicks, swipes, and soundbites, we took our time and delved deep into Nigel's life, honouring the intrinsic details of the story and marking each turning point, giving it the attention it deserves. We went after depth, and we delved deep into pain... And it was good. We discussed things such as: — his struggle with 'fitting in' in the workplace — his birth-mother suddenly showing up in his life as an adult — covering the pain of the 'inner child' with drugs — the search for meaning and questions about God — feeling lost, having nothing and belonging nowhere — entering deeply into the drug culture and becoming a 'hippie' — 'bad trips' and the dark reality of drugs — looking into different religions and converting to Chrstianity — the 'Jesus question' and the baggage that Western Christianity brings — using drugs as a 'churchgoer' — not fitting into the 'subculture' of church — how unresolved past trauma of 'not belonging' sabotages the present — not being able to relate to God as father — a (re) traumatising mission trip to Asia — a suicide attempt — suffering two broken legs and entering into a lifetime of physical pain — 'opening the door to death' and what that may possibly mean — learning to walk again, learning to live again — studying deep subjects and getting two university degrees in his thirties — revisiting the land of his roots and meeting his biological father for the first time — working as a teacher and diving deeper into pain — the difference between religion and reality — the lessons that pain can teach us ...this, and so much more!