Are you running from Jesus — even if you don’t realize it?

Sometimes running doesn’t look like rebellion. Sometimes it looks like staying busy, staying “fine,” or convincing ourselves we’ll deal with the pain later. In this episode, I’m sharing the moment that became a true turning point in my abortion recovery — the moment I stopped running from Jesus and finally turned toward Him instead.

I open up about my experience in a Bible-based abortion recovery program, the unexpected resistance that rose up in me when I was asked to be vulnerable, and the realization that changed everything: I wasn’t just hiding my grief from people — I was hiding it from Jesus.

You’ll hear:

• What running from Jesus can look like after abortion

• Why private grief often keeps us stuck instead of safe

• How vulnerability became the doorway to real healing for me

• Why surrendering your pain to Jesus — instead of carrying it alone — is what finally brings freedom

This episode is for the woman who wants healing but is afraid of what it will cost her emotionally. It’s for the woman who’s tired of running, tired of hiding, and ready to stop picking the pain back up after setting it down.

If you’re longing for peace, healing, and freedom, this episode is a reminder that Jesus isn’t asking you to perform — He’s inviting you to come closer. Healing is already waiting for you, friend. 🤍

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

If you’ve ever wondered why the thoughts before your abortion sounded so convincing — and the thoughts after sounded so cruel — this episode will open your eyes.

Satan has a script when it comes to abortion. He knows exactly what to say to get women into the clinic… and exactly what to say afterward to keep them trapped in shame, silence, and fear. Today, we’re exposing that script — and more importantly, learning how to shut it down.

In this episode, I share vulnerably about the spiritual warfare I experienced before and after my abortion, how the lies shifted the moment it was over, and why that pattern is not accidental. We talk about why shame is the enemy’s favorite weapon — and why it loses its power the moment it’s brought into the light.

You’ll learn:

• How spiritual warfare shows up before and after abortion

• Why the enemy moves from justification to accusation — and how that keeps women stuck

• The two practical steps you can start today to shut shame down

• How naming lies and replacing them with God’s truth leads to real freedom and peace

This episode isn’t about minimizing responsibility — it’s about understanding the battle you’ve been fighting and realizing that shame was never meant to be your sentence. Healing is possible. Wholeness is possible. And freedom is closer than you think.

If shame has been controlling your thoughts and stealing your peace after abortion, this episode will help you recognize the lies, reclaim truth, and begin walking in freedom again. 🤍

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

Does prayer feel pointless lately? Do you find yourself wondering if it even matters — or if God is listening at all?

If you’ve ever felt like God is distant, silent, or hard to reach after abortion, this episode is for you. Today we’re talking honestly about why prayer can feel ineffective and why God can seem far — even when you love Him and want a closer relationship.

In this episode, I’m sharing from my own spiritual journey and the seasons when God still felt distant, even after years of growth. Not from a place of condemnation or shame — but from understanding. We’re going to look at what might be getting in the way and, more importantly, what you can actually do to change that.

You’ll hear:

• Three common reasons God feels far after abortion

• Why distance doesn’t always mean abandonment — and what it often really points to

• How shame, avoidance, and control quietly disrupt intimacy with God

• One simple, practical step you can take this week to begin feeling closer to Him again

This episode isn’t about doing more or being perfect. It’s about starting where you are, stopping the hiding, and learning how to spend time with God in a way that’s honest, consistent, and life-giving.

If prayer feels hard, distant, or empty right now, this episode will help you understand why — and show you how to take the first small step back toward closeness with God. 🤍

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

Has it been years since your abortion — and now, out of nowhere, everything feels like it’s falling apart?

Maybe you spent a long time feeling “fine.” You built a life, deepened your faith, and convinced yourself the past was behind you. And then suddenly, the grief, guilt, and regret you thought you had dealt with come crashing in all at once. If you’re wondering how you’re supposed to survive today — let alone tomorrow — this episode is for you.

In this episode, I’m sharing my own story of how the weight of unhealed shame and grief surfaced more than a decade after my abortion — during a run where God met me in a way I didn’t expect and didn’t understand at the time. I’ll talk honestly about the fear, confusion, and self-punishment I carried, and how major life moments have a way of bringing buried pain back to the surface.

You’ll learn:

• Why it’s normal for abortion grief to resurface years — or even decades — later

• How life transitions, loss, stress, and exhaustion can unlock unhealed trauma

• Why your body and heart remember what your mind tried to forget

• What you can actually do when the grief feels overwhelming and impossible to ignore

If you’ve ever thought, “Why now?” or “I thought I was past this,” I want you to know: you’re not broken, you’re not weak, and you’re not alone. There is a reason this is surfacing — and there is a path toward healing and peace.

If regret has found you again after all these years, this episode will help you understand why — and remind you that God’s grace is still sufficient for you. 🤍

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

Do you ever feel like God has gone silent because of your past? Like you’ve done the one thing that disqualified you from His presence, His blessings, or even His attention?

Friend, you are not alone — and you are not forgotten.

In today’s episode, we’re talking about the hidden way shame after abortion quietly sabotages your spiritual growth. I’m sharing vulnerably from my own prayer journals and the patterns I didn’t recognize for years — including how shame shaped the way I prayed, what I believed about forgiveness, and why I felt like God was always just out of reach.

You’ll hear:

• Why shame doesn’t draw you closer to God — it keeps you stuck at arm’s length

• The three most common lies women believe after abortion that block spiritual intimacy

• Powerful Scriptures that directly confront the belief that you’re unforgivable, ruined, or forgotten

• How God’s forgiveness is not fragile, conditional, or temporary — even after abortion

We’ll also talk about what it actually looks like to grow spiritually while you’re healing — not after you “fix yourself,” but right where you are.

You are not unforgivable. You are not ruined. You are not forgotten.

Jesus came to set you free — and this episode is for the woman who needs that reminder today. 🤍

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

Do you feel emotionally numb when you think about your past abortion? Maybe you know something is off… but you can’t quite put your finger on it.

At one point, you may have felt relief—or even freedom—after your abortion. But now? There’s confusion. Uncertainty. A quiet heaviness you can’t shake.

Friend, if that’s you, this episode is for you.

This conversation is not meant to shame or condemn you. My heart is to gently offer a different perspective—one that might just point you toward the true healing your heart has been craving all along.

In today’s episode, we’re talking honestly about denial after abortion and how emotional numbness is often mistaken for healing. Together, we’ll walk through 4 signs you may be numb, not healed, and what you can do about it.

🚨 Ready to take your first step toward healing after abortion?

Join me for a live FREE Abortion Recovery Workshop on February 3rd at 7pm CT, where we’ll talk honestly about what healing actually looks like and how to begin moving forward with God in a safe, compassionate space. Registering gets you a chance to win over $100 in door prizes!

👉 Register here: https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

2025 has been an incredible year for the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women podcast—and I want to celebrate it with you! In this episode, I’m sharing the top 10 most-listened-to episodes of the year. From finding peace in unplanned pregnancies to navigating grief and self-forgiveness after abortion, these episodes have touched thousands of women and helped them take steps toward healing with God. If you’ve been searching for hope, encouragement, or practical steps to move forward, you won’t want to miss this reflection on some of our most impactful content from 2025.

Top 10 Episodes of 2025:

10. 254 | Overwhelmed and Afraid? How to Find Peace in the Middle of an Unplanned Pregnancy 9. 192 | How to Gain the Courage to Share Your Abortion Testimony 8. 220 | Abortion & Grief: The Step by Step Plan to Help You Heal 7. 204 | Abortion Recovery Awareness Month: Ministering to God's Pearls | Special Guest, Tonya B. Jones 6. 193 | If God Knew I Would Choose Abortion, Was It a Part of His Plan for Me? 5. 222 | Why You Might Regret Your Abortion Years Later—and How to Heal 4. 230 | How to Forgive Yourself After Abortion—Even When It Feels Impossible 3. 225 | Second Trimester Abortion, 12 Years of Pain, & an Encounter with God | Special Guest, Lisa Washington 2. 191 | How to Let Go of What Should Have Been So You Can Have Peace After Abortion

1. 206 | Abortion Recovery Awareness Month: From Fearful and Alone to Obedient and Courageous | Special Guest, Quinn Poehls

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

✨ Join the Monthly Membership

Want exclusive content, bonus teachings, behind-the-scenes access, and a private, off-social-media community of women healing from abortion? Become a monthly partner through my BRAND NEW membership!

Your support helps keep the podcast running — and gives you access to deeper encouragement, devos, and community connection. Join here: https://buymeacoffee.com/brittanypoppe/membership

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter

What happens when God redeems every part of your story—even the chapters marked by shame, regret, and loss?

In this powerful and hope-filled episode, I sit down with Crystal Allen—a Christian entrepreneur, wife, mom of three, and grandmother of seven—who bravely shares her journey of faith, failure, forgiveness, and healing after abortion.

Crystal opens up about her life as a business owner alongside her family, running a home renovation company together for the past three years. But beneath the success story is a deeper testimony—one marked by growing up in a strict religious environment, seasons of rebellion, a difficult early marriage, and a decision that would later weigh heavily on her heart.

Crystal vulnerably shares her experience with abortion, the regret that followed, and how God gently led her through post-abortion healing. Through faith, surrender, and forgiveness, she discovered that her story was not beyond redemption.

This conversation is filled with hope for any woman carrying guilt, shame, or fear after abortion—and for anyone wondering, “Does God really forgive me?”

Connect with Crystal:

Instagram: @thrifty_cab

YouTube: The Thrifty Cab

Facebook: The Thrifty Cab

✨ Ready to begin your healing journey? Schedule an Abortion Recovery Breakthrough Call with me—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

✨ Join the Monthly Membership

Want exclusive content, bonus teachings, behind-the-scenes access, and a private, off-social-media community of women healing from abortion? Become a monthly partner through my BRAND NEW membership!

Your support helps keep the podcast running — and gives you access to deeper encouragement, devos, and community connection. Join here: https://buymeacoffee.com/brittanypoppe/membership

📖 Need a safe place to start? Download my Permission to Grieve Devotional—a free guide to help you process your pain through God’s truth. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/freebie

🤍 Looking for safe, faith-based community? Come join us inside the Abortion Recovery for Christian Women Facebook group—we’re waiting to welcome you with open arms. 👉 facebook.com/groups/abortionrecoveryforchristianwomen

💌 Want weekly encouragement and healing tips straight to your inbox? Sign up for the newsletter and get hope & peace sent to you every week. 👉 brittanypoppe.com/newsletter