in this episode of cripple chronicles, i am doing my own version of “wrapped” for 2025 and six years since my accident. instead of just spotify and youtube stats, we are looking at what a full year of disabled life actually looks like in numbers.

i talk about:
why my birthday + accident anniversary week always feels heavy and weird
82k minutes of music, 331 genres and my parasocial relationship with two hot takes
what it really takes to make this podcast exist in the background of my life
months spent waiting for prosthetics vs the days i actually get to walk
garmin stats for wheelchair pushes, sleep and body battery that finally proved i am not “just lazy”
how much time i lose every year to pain, advocacy and planning around inaccessibility
what my benefits, bills, debt and motability numbers actually look like
why my car is not a luxury but an access tool that keeps me from being trapped at home
it is part numbers, part rant, part love letter to everyone trying to survive life in a disabled body inside systems that were not built for us.

CHAPTERS

00:00 intro, birthday week and accident anniversary
03:03 why birthdays always felt strange for me
05:12 deciding to do a “cripple wrapped” instead of just spotify wrapped
07:25 music wrapped 2025
12:20 cripple chronicles wrapped episodes, editing time, research days, views and watch time
18:26 mobility wrapped ilizarov frame, becoming an amputee, waiting lists and the kitchen saga
25:41 garmin wrapped wheelchair pushes, miles, sleep score and body battery reality check
29:45 pain, medication, advocacy time and planning around inaccessibility
30:30 benefits wrapped income, bills, groceries, debt and the activity trap
37:30 car and driving wrapped motability, 10,400 miles and why public transport is not an option
41:30 closing thoughts on 2025, six years since the accident and a message to anyone in their own “year one”

CONNECT WITH ME

instagram: @cripplechroniclespod
tiktok: @cripplechroniclespod (if you want it there)
email: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com

you can send episode ideas, questions, collab requests or your own “disabled wrapped” stats there.

MUSIC CREDITS

intro music:
“Reflection” by Filo Starquez
used with permission.

outro music:
“Angelz” by ZiMPL
artist: ZiMPL / zimplmusic
license: Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported (CC BY 3.0)

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How to Keep Going is an episode about resilience without the toxic positivity or the nonsense we are usually fed. As someone disabled, chronically ill and recovering from trauma, resilience has never meant being strong all the time. It has looked like coping, crashing, rebuilding and trying again. In this episode I talk about practical ways I get through the harder days, how I define strength now, and why community and support matter more than anything. If you are feeling overwhelmed, burnt out or stuck, I hope this gives you something grounding and useful.

If you want to share your own coping strategies, questions or ideas for future episodes, email me at cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com
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00:00 to 02:01 — introduction
02:01 to 04:25 — what is resilience?
04:25 to 14:56 — evidence based coping strategies
14:56 to 19:55 — daily resilience routines
19:55 to 28:35 — redefining strength and rooted resilience
28:35 to 30:39 — closing thoughts

Topics: resilience, coping strategies, disability, chronic illness, mental health, recovery, community care, accessible self care

byeeee

Hi friends! In this episode of The Cripple Chronicles, we are getting into the messy middle of recovery, spirituality and that weird line between “this happened for a reason” and “am I actually losing the plot?”

I talk about how faith and spirituality helped me survive Ilizarov frames, a broken leg that literally snapped in front of me, amputation and living in survival mode minute by minute. We also get into the darker side of faith when religious beliefs slide into psychosis, especially with TikTok echo chambers and rapture content doing laps on the algorithm.

If you’ve ever used “everything happens for a reason” as a life raft, wrestled with religious fear, or felt guilty for needing both a higher power and a rehab plan, this one is for you.

In this episode we cover:

The difference between spirituality and organised religion in real life, not theory
How faith and positive coping can help you survive medical trauma, disability and grief
When spirituality tips into religious psychosis and why that’s so dangerous
Practical spiritual “anchors” that don’t require a mountaintop or a miracle
Blurring lines between faith, responsibility and victimhood in recovery
How humour, community and tiny rituals kept me alive when I wanted to give up

Content note:
This episode includes mentions of suicidal ideation, medical trauma, religious themes and religious psychosis. Please take care while listening.

Chapters

00:00 – Welcome back
00:42 – Introduction and where this episode came from
05:10 – What is spirituality and why does it matter?
11:45 – How faith and positive coping interact
15:28 – The dark side: when faith becomes psychosis
18:30 – Practical ways to cultivate spiritual anchors
28:43 – Blurring lines between faith and personal responsibility
35:04 – Closing thoughts and reflections

Related episodes

Euthanasia deep dive episode:
I mention this around 01:40 in the episode. You can watch/listen here:
https://youtu.be/1jLtSo6LtCk

Alcoholism, Al-Anon and loving someone who drinks:
For more on higher power thinking, boundaries and detaching with love:
[https://youtu.be/zcq9WQoRen4

Support links mentioned

Al-Anon Family Groups (UK & Eire) – support for anyone affected by someone else’s drinking. Helpline 10am–10pm, 365 days a year.
Website: https://al-anonuk.org.uk

Worldwide Al-Anon / Alateen site – information and meetings in other countries.
Al-Anon Family Groups
Website: https://al-anon.org

Nacoa – National Association for Children of Alcoholics (UK) – support for children and adults affected by a parent’s drinking.
Website: https://nacoa.org.uk

If anything in this episode brings stuff up for you, please reach out to a trusted person or a mental health professional in your area.

Connect:

Instagram & TikTok: @cripplechroniclespod
Email: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com

If you enjoyed this episode, please like, subscribe, share it with a friend and leave a comment about how spirituality has shown up in your recovery. It keeps my one-legged heart very happy.

until next time,
Byeeee

We always talk about the right to live. Today we ask what it means to have the right to die. This episode traces the story from ancient philosophy and church doctrine to modern laws, psychiatric eligibility, and the way social media shapes the narrative. My goal is not to glamorise or condemn but to understand the line between compassion and harm, and how we decide who gets help, who gets protection, and who gets to choose.

Chapters;
00:00-00:54: Introduction
00:54-06:30: Part 1
06:30-23:41: Part 2
23:41-35:58: Part 3
35:58-53:32: Part 4
53:32-01:07:57: Part 5
01:07:57-01:22:22: Part 6
01:22:22-01:35:35: Part 6.2
01:35:35-01:46:07: Part 7
01:46:07-01:50:18: Closing
01:50:18: Meet Miso


what’s inside
• ancient greece, stoicism, and honour vs duty
• christian theology, natural law, and the idea of “double effect”
• 19th-century medicine, pain relief, and quiet shifts in practice
• modern legal frameworks in the netherlands, belgium, and canada
• psychiatric-only requests, capacity, treatment resistance, and risk
• social media stories, audience impact, and duty of care
• my position after researching and making this episode

This episode discusses death, suicide, euthanasia, assisted dying, and mental illness. Please take care while listening. If you are struggling, speak to someone you trust or contact local support services.

The first twenty minutes are more visually edited than the rest. I kept the second half simpler so the episode could be released in a timely way. If you like the heavier style, tell me in the comments.

This is a nuanced topic and I may have missed perspectives. If there is something I mis-spoke on or did not consider, please leave a comment with a timestamp and a source link. I will review and pin helpful additions.

fair use and credits

This video includes short clips, screenshots, and images used for commentary, criticism, education, and research. All third-party materials are credited on screen and linked below where available. Rights remain with their respective owners.

Dori's Diary video links;
Part one; He Built a Brand Off Trauma — And You Fell For It (Okuntakinte) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRSU-0dNAag

Part two; He Found a New Grift — And You Fell For It Again (Okuntakinte)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUq5qL3GzQI

contact

For feedback or sources: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com

If you find this useful, please like, comment, and subscribe. Share with someone who would value a careful, informed conversation about end-of-life ethics.

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Euthanasia AssistedDying MedicalEthics MentalHealth Stoicism HistoryOfMedicine RightToDie Podcast VideoEssay Deep Dive

Hi friends!

Welcome back to another episode of Cripple Chronicles!
Last episode i actually wanted to talk about the fact my 3rd ampuversary was coming up.. i planned to record this on the day of the ampuversary however disability popped up as it does at the most oppotune times and i had to rest until i was able to record - and also edit the episode to bring it all together.

While i try and bring together all of the strings about euthanasia for the video essay i am wanting to get out, the next episode will be a compliation of sorts kind of a crash course of episodes where i talk about how i ended up with one leg and trying some new editing while i do that. so if you would like to see that please subscribe and hit that bell because i try to upload every two weeks but sometimes not on the same day because disabled, sigh.

What are some anniversaries you like to reflect on? id love to know in the comments or alternatively -
📩 Email: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com
📱 Follow me: @cripplechroniclespod on Instagram + TikTok


📕 Chapters:
00:00 – 01:05 Introduction
01:05 - 09:26 What i remember most from amputation day
09:26 - 11:46 What were the hard things post amputation
11:46 - 15:34 First year milestones and when things began to shift
15:34 - 21:19 second year progress (aug 23-24)
21:19 - 35:14 What have i learned in year 3
35:14 - 39:53 Body image post amputation and what comfort means now
39:53 - 42:07 what have i learned about resilience and adaptation
42:07 - 46:25 what feelings have came up overall about amputation
46:25 - 59:14 Outro

🎶 Music Credits:
Intro: Reflection by Filo Starquez
Outro: Angelz by ZiMPL
Background: Limousines - TrackTribe

Hi friends!

Welcome back to another episode of Cripple Chronicles! In this life update episode, I’m sharing what’s been going on behind the scenes in my world, my life as an amputee, my mental health journey, and some exciting projects I’ve been working on.
Life has been a bit chaotic lately, so I’m keeping things real and unscripted today.

I also give a quick peek into how I’m navigating social media, connecting with you all on Instagram and TikTok, and just keeping it real about what life looks like on my side of things.

If you enjoy candid chats about disability, mental health, and everyday life, hit that subscribe/follow button and join me on this journey.

Chapters;

Hi friends

This episode is a long one, I thought it might be when I was recording but it ended up much longer as it is something I am passionate about, something that I live through and experience on a daily basis. I am not one to get political on the podcast as the current political landscape feels like hell to try and direct what is going on.

This is an episode about reforms, what these reforms ACTUALLY mean, austerity, poverty, the benefits system that has been built upon suspicion instead of support. In the last episode I did some more editing, finding some b-roll and adding in some extra clips - for this episode I actually had a lot of things that I could add in - but this episode may have ended up being closer to 3 hours, so I've decided that all of the other things I have to say will be discussed within the next episode.

I have listed materials I used for research below, as well as where you can follow me on socials and get in touch if you have anything you dont wanna say in the comments section.

Resources used;
Want to fact-check the mess? Curious if I made it all up? Here's where you can see the stats and studies I mentioned in this episode, so you can scream into the void with evidence.

Scope's 2024 Disability Price Tag Report (£1,010 per month extra costs)
https://www.scope.org.uk/campaigns/extra-costs/disability-price-tag/

Joseph Rowntree Foundation – UK Poverty 2023 (nearly 30 percent of disabled people live in poverty)
https://www.jrf.org.uk/report/uk-poverty-2023

JRF – 7 in 10 low-income disabled households go without essentials
https://www.jrf.org.uk/report/going-without-essentials-depth-cost-living-crisis

Resolution Foundation – Disabled people £2,800 worse off on UC
https://www.resolutionfoundation.org/publications/the-long-and-winding-road/

Citizens Advice – Over 60 percent of UC claimants have debt deductions
https://www.citizensadvice.org.uk/about-us/policy/policy-research-topics/welfare-policy-research/the-deduction-trap/

BMJ – Universal Credit linked to higher rates of depression and anxiety
https://www.bmj.com/content/370/bmj.m3345

DWP – £37 billion cut from welfare system between 2010 and 2021
https://www.equalityhumanrights.com/en/publication-download/cumulative-impact-tax-and-welfare-reforms

NHS England prescription charges (£9.90 per item)
https://www.nhsbsa.nhs.uk/help-nhs-prescription-costs/prescription-charges

Free prescriptions in Wales (2007)
https://www.nhsconfed.org/news/wales-celebrates-10-years-free-prescriptions

Free prescriptions in Scotland (2011)
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-scotland-12930321

Free prescriptions in Northern Ireland (2010)
https://www.northernireland.gov.uk/news/free-prescriptions-introduced-ni

Ministry of Justice – Over 70 percent of PIP appeals are successful
https://www.gov.uk/government/statistics/tribunal-statistics-quarterly-october-to-december-2022

National Audit Office – Problems with PIP assessments
https://www.nao.org.uk/reports/personal-independence-payment-assessment-process/

DWP – Fraud rate for PIP is 0 percent, DLA is 0.1 percent
https://www.gov.uk/government/statistics/fraud-and-error-in-the-benefit-system-financial-year-2022-to-2023

UC fraud rate between 10.9 and 13.9 percent
https://www.gov.uk/government/statistics/fraud-and-error-in-the-benefit-system-financial-year-2022-to-2023

(all other resources linked in YT description I ran out of space here)


📩 Email: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com
📱 Follow me: @cripplechroniclespod on Instagram + TikTok

🎶 Music Credits:
Intro: Reflection by Filo Starquez
Outro: Angelz by ZiMPL

Hi friends 💜

In this episode, I’m taking you back to the late '90s and early 2000s, growing up in Scotland in a kind of poverty that wasn’t always visible, but was always there. It wasn’t food bank queues or charity handouts. It was extension cords running through the house, a kitchen that never got finished, and learning how to blend in at school so nobody asked too many questions.

I talk about what it felt like to always be playing catch up, to count pennies for basic things, and how those early experiences still echo through my life now, especially as a disabled adult on benefits. I also talk about the emotional side of poverty, the silence, the shame, and the grit it takes to keep going when you don’t know what’s next.

This isn’t about pity. This is about truth. If you’ve ever felt the weight of financial insecurity or grown up pretending things were fine when they weren’t, this one’s for you.

Don’t forget to follow, share, and if something in this episode resonates. I’d love to hear from you.

Videos + materials used for episode;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0mvtGfr-Sg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofsncCF9O_U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8PIVJicYDw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9UlLGAywqU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adi6rVGAbyU&t=64s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1lYI-WNJf4

https://www.gov.scot/publications/poverty-income-inequality-scotland-2019-23/
https://www.jrf.org.uk/report/uk-poverty-2022
https://www.rcn.org.uk/news-and-events/news/uk-nursing-students-report-mental-health-struggles-070922
https://www.nursingtimes.net/news/workforce/student-nurses-facing-high-risk-of-burnout-study-finds-15-07-2022/

📩 Email: cripplechroniclespod@gmail.com
📱 Follow me: @cripplechroniclespod on Instagram + TikTok

🎶 Music Credits:
Intro: Reflection by Filo Starquez
Outro: Angelz by ZiMPL