Spiritual Grief

After years on the road performing at sold-out venues, Tyson Motsenbocker returned home to the impending death of his 57-year-old hero and mother. He begged God to heal her, but she died anyway. When they buried her body, Tyson also buried the childhood version of his faith. Shortly before her death, however, Tyson became intrigued by the complicated legacy of Father Junipero Serra, the 18th-century Franciscan monk and canonized saint who dedicated his life to the idea that tragedy and suffering are portals to renewal.

On September 2, 2008, our twin daughters, Kayla and Kelsey, were returning home from Lubbock-Cooper High School after basketball practice. A 40,000-pound dump truck veered into their lane. Kelsey was driving. She was 18. Kayla was injured, but lived. We were sent spiraling on a spiritual journey, a parent's worst nightmare. The audiobook describes our life beforehand, both as a family and where each of us was spiritually, but most of the story focuses on our travail after the accident.

Dallas Willard spent his life making eternal living concrete for his friends. After his unexpected passing in 2013, the kaleidoscope of memories and the diversity of the lives he had touched could not be confined to one or even two memorial services but three. It is this wide breadth of impact that inspired friends, family, colleagues, students, and leaders of the church to gather their reflections on this celebrated yet humble theologian and philosopher.

Let these words help you articulate your own sorrows, bring you to your knees, encourage you to confess your insufficiency, and express your most genuine emotions. In Our Suffering, Lord Be Near will help find hope in God when your world is falling apart. God can handle your suffering. So, tell Him.

As a troubled teenager, Tamara Laroux just wants the pain to go away. Crying out to God for forgiveness, she makes the heart-wrenching decision to end her life. As she plummets from her body to a place of vast darkness, torment, and agony, Tamara instantly realizes the finality of her rash decision and begs God to save her.

Pete and Harriet Deison were enjoying a full life of being parents, grandparents, and partners in ministry when deep depression spiraled Harriet into a darkness that caused her to take her own life. Suddenly thrust into unimaginable grief, Pete, a Presbyterian minister, turned to his roots as a student and educator in an attempt to make sense of it all. Visits from Heaven is the love story of a man and his wife of 43 years, which quietly becomes the story of God's love for his children.

When you're going through a season of grief, it's hard to fathom that there will be a day when you won't be hurting. Throughout Scripture we are taught to humble ourselves and love one another because empathy is born from loving our neighbor. If you've ever experienced loss, you're able to help others turn their grief into grace and create hope and purpose from what feels devastating and heartbreaking.

After her brother died unexpectedly and her mother moved into a dementia-care facility, spiritual travel writer and Episcopal deacon Lori Erickson felt called to a new quest: to face death head-on, with the eye of a tourist and the heart of a pastor. Blending memoir, spirituality, and travel, Near the Exit examines how cultures confront and have confronted death by investigating Egypt's Valley of the Kings, Mayan temples, Colorado cremation pyres, Day of the Dead celebrations, Maori settlements, and tourist-destination graveyards.

Katherine Clark was just an average wife and mother with two young children when she was in a tragic playground accident in late May 2009. A little boy playing on the jungle gym jumped and landed on Kate’s head, knocking her over and snapping her neck. Kate was paralyzed from the neck down. The doctors diagnosed her with quadriplegia and said she would never walk again. This terrifying prognosis could have been the end of the story. But instead, God chose to work a profound miracle in Kate’s life and in the life of her family.

When you’re in the midst of suffering, you want answers for the unanswerable, resolutions to the unresolvable. But there is a pathway through this suffering. It’s not easy, but God will use it to lead you toward healing. This path is called lament. In the midst of your darkest times, you will discover that lament leads you back to a place of hope - not because lamenting does anything magical, but because God sings a louder song than suffering ever could, a song of renewal and restoration.

Can’t Nothing Bring Me Down is the memoir of 104-year-old world-record-holding runner Ida Keeling. Miss Ida, as she’s known throughout her Bronx community, isn’t your typical runner. Her fierce independence helped her through the Depression and the civil rights movement. But her greatest trials were yet to come.

Felicity Warner’s Soul Midwives movement has revolutionized the face of modern palliative care all over the world. Soul Midwives are trained to honor the unique needs of each individual at every stage of the dying process, offering spiritual, emotional, and holistic support and companionship in various settings–whether at home, in hospices, or care homes. This essential handbook blends ancient wisdom and forgotten traditions with contemporary holistic practices to redefine end-of-life care and ease the passage of the dying.

Similar to a novel in which listeners choose their own paths, Why Is There Suffering? by Bethany Sollereder allows listeners who want to better understand the existence of suffering the opportunity to sort through the most common and viable options, ultimately discovering answers that make the most sense to them.

Times of disaster are unavoidable. We don’t get to choose whether or not to live in such times. We can only choose what to do with the time that we live. Will we let fear and darkness overwhelm us, or will we choose to shine the light of hope? In Hope in Any Crisis, pastor and best-selling author Bill Johnson reveals the powerful divine protection offered to you as a believer, three responses you can experience in times of uncertainty, and your responsibility to have hope in all things.

Everyone has had to say goodbye. Experiences of loss abound: death, illness, unemployment, severed ties, financial struggles, or geographical moves, to name but a few. Joyce Rupp has a healing gift for helping readers and listeners to reflect, ritualize and reorient themselves when loss looms large in their lives. In this book, she writes about healing and recovered hope. This audio edition includes six chapters, rooted in Scripture, and concluding with questions for further reflection.

Join David Faust as he helps answer questions such as: How should I deal with my fears about aging? What should I do when I retire? How can I enjoy a fruitful relationship with God as I grow older? How should I deal with grief when friends and family members pass away?

After ten years of tear-soaked prayers and repeatedly dashed hopes, Sheridan Voysey and his wife come to a heart-breaking conclusion: their dream of having a child is over. Empty and confused from a decade of disappointment, they leave their jobs, pack their bags, and embark on a journey in search of restoration. Voysey chronicles the couple’s return to life. From the streets of Rome to the Basilicas of Paris, from the Alps of Switzerland to their new home in Oxford, Voysey and his wife begin the healing process while wrestling with their doubts about God’s goodness.

Over twenty years later, Dee was still in love with her charming Southern gentleman when he passed away suddenly in 2007. Determined to carry on Johnnie’s work, Dee earned her mortuary science degree, only to find herself no longer needed in the family business. So Dee crossed the racial divide in the most segregated industry in America and joined the staff of an African-American funeral home as a single white woman. In The Undertaker’s Wife, Oliver draws from her experience to provide candid advice on dying well and surviving the loss of those who have gone before.

Underwood shares how the story of Lazarus brought renewed hope during his darkest moments of suffering and doubt in his personal battle with leukemia, bringing to life God's powerful answer to the question of pain and suffering: that Jesus loves and cares for us.

We all have a “this” moment. A major struggle in life, a sudden calamity, a burning wound we never could have prepared for. The impact can knock the spiritual wind out of us and leave us sprawled out on the ground—or send us straight to the strength of the Father. Whatever your “this” may be, God can use it to equip you with strength, and He has a plan to lovingly bring you into wholeness. In God Will See You Through This, author and teacher Dr. Jim Garlow humbly journeys alongside you to share twenty-six of the most life-altering lessons he’s learned.