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  • Down the Rabbit Hole

  • Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
  • Written by: Holly Madison
  • Narrated by: Holly Madison
  • Length: 10 hrs and 51 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (281 ratings)

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Down the Rabbit Hole

Written by: Holly Madison
Narrated by: Holly Madison
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Publisher's Summary

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and finally the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub, contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.

©2015 Holly Madison (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers

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worth the listen

The novel repeted its self a few times. Would explain something, then in th next chapter reword it to explain the same thing

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way more substance than assumed

the book was great. it flowed very well and kt was interesting. I wish there were a little.more gossipy moments but it was all done in good taste I feel. only issue with Holly narrating is her use of wh-. her wh in what why or any words that start with wh is very pronounced and takes the focus away from the sentence for a second, it was a little distracting for me. however still amazing!

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Audio quality isn’t great

The audio quality isn’t great it’s kind of pixelated which makes it only really listenable on 1.5x speed

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Loved it

Loved it! Had watched Girls Next Door when it was on TV and was looking forward to getting the behind the scenes look. Will recommend it. Great voices and performance by Holly Madison!

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Amazing story. unique prespective

Loved this. Unexpected emotions in this book. the life of a playboy bunny isn't all it's racked up to be. The story, details and performance by Holly was Amazing.

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I was enthralled the entire book!

I could not put this down. Glad to hear Holly is happy now! go girl!

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Good book!

Learned some new things beyond what you know through the media & the show. I appreciated Hollys honesty.

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Great story

Holly was easy to listen to . Loved her experiences
It’s a matter of fact story . Love Holly !

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Charming audiobook

I truly was impressed on the inner strength that Holly had and finally was able to show it. So proud of this women.
I really enjoyed Hollys narrative of the book. As I listen to her tell her story I was walking in her footsteps along the way in my wild imagination. At times I forgot I was listening to an audiobook and not a show playing vividly in my mind.

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Addictive listen!!! Even better than I expected.

Holly did an amazing job writing her memoir… it was very well written and read. Her voice is so soothing and her stories were raw and honest. I finished this in days, I couldn’t stop listening.

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