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Susan Burton
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Susan Burton
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An editor at This American Life reveals the searing story of the secret binge-eating that dominated her adolescence and shapes her still.
“Her tale of compulsion and healing is candid and powerful.” (People)
Named One of the Best Books of the Year by Marie Claire
For almost 30 years, Susan Burton hid her obsession with food and the secret life of compulsive eating and starving that dominated her adolescence. This is the relentlessly honest, fiercely intelligent story of living with both anorexia and binge-eating disorder, moving past her shame, and learning to tell her secret.
When Burton was 13, her stable life in suburban Michigan was turned upside down by her parents’ abrupt divorce, and she moved to Colorado with her mother and sister. She seized on this move west as an adventure and an opportunity to reinvent herself from middle-school nerd to popular teenage girl. But in the fallout from her parents’ breakup, an inherited fixation on thinness went from “peculiarity to pathology.”
Susan entered into a painful cycle of anorexia and binge eating that formed a subterranean layer to her sunny life. She went from success to success - she went to Yale, scored a dream job at a magazine right out of college, and married her college boyfriend. But in college the compulsive eating got worse - she’d binge, swear it would be the last time, and then, hours later, do it again - and after she graduated she descended into anorexia, her attempt to "quit food".
Binge eating is more prevalent than anorexia or bulimia, but there is less research and little storytelling to help us understand it. In tart, soulful prose Susan Burton strikes a blow for the importance of this kind of narrative and tells an exhilarating story of longing, compulsion and hard-earned self-revelation.
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Brutally Honest
This book perfectly captures the essence of having an eating disorder. However, I wish the author would have waited to write it. It felt cut short and unfinished. I was waiting for more about her life as an adult in her 30’s and 40’s and how she is currently recovering. The recovery part was missing from this book. I was left wondering and wanting more.
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- 2021-03-14
Powerful and compelling
Beautifully written. I like that it’s read by the author, it feels like you are right there with her.
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- 2020-12-13
Amazing!
I couldn't stop listening! I finished the book before our book club even started it. so brutally honest and well written. Must read for anyone with disordered eating.
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WOW!
my only complaint about this book is that I'm sad I can not listen to it again for the first time....what an amazing woman Susan is!
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