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Narrated by:
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Jully Lee
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Written by:
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Baek Sehee
About this listen
Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee, read by Jully Lee.
The internationally bestselling therapy memoir translated by International Booker Prize shortlisted Anton Hur.
PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?
ME: I don’t know, I’m – what’s the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail?
Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her – what to call it? – depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?
Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions, and harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.
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- Camila Boeno
- 2024-03-22
Amazing listening!
The voice was a bit mechanical at some points of the story, but overall, it transmitted the feelings of the main character pretty well. I also loved the story as I could relate to it so much and could learn a lot of things.
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- Bbro872
- 2023-06-25
Now time for some self reflection. 😌
This book is a very raw, personal look into the authors struggles with her mental health, family and vanity. There were many instances where I could relate to her struggles with depression and really made me think about how I see myself and the world around me. (Also I just wanted to give her a hug a many points) The last part where she was talking about her family and we were done with the therapy sessions I really enjoyed!
Was this book amazing? Probably not, but I did enjoy it and it got some gears going inside my head.
Now time for some self reflection. 😌
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