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  • I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

  • Written by: Baek Sehee
  • Narrated by: Jully Lee
  • Length: 3 hrs and 56 mins
  • 4.4 out of 5 stars (11 ratings)

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I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

Written by: Baek Sehee
Narrated by: Jully Lee
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Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee, read by Jully Lee.

The South Korean runaway bestseller, debut author Baek Sehee's intimate therapy memoir, as recommended by BTS.

Psychiatrist: So how can I help you?

Me: I don’t know, I’m—what’s the word—depressed? Do I have to go into detail?

Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her—what to call it?—depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a yen for her favourite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?

Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is an audiobook to keep close and to listen to in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.

©2018 Baek Sehee (P)2022 Bloomsbury Publishing Plc

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Amazing listening!

The voice was a bit mechanical at some points of the story, but overall, it transmitted the feelings of the main character pretty well. I also loved the story as I could relate to it so much and could learn a lot of things.

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Now time for some self reflection. 😌

This book is a very raw, personal look into the authors struggles with her mental health, family and vanity. There were many instances where I could relate to her struggles with depression and really made me think about how I see myself and the world around me. (Also I just wanted to give her a hug a many points) The last part where she was talking about her family and we were done with the therapy sessions I really enjoyed!

Was this book amazing? Probably not, but I did enjoy it and it got some gears going inside my head.

Now time for some self reflection. 😌

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