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  • If He Had Been with Me

  • Written by: Laura Nowlin
  • Narrated by: Gina Rogers
  • Length: 8 hrs and 37 mins
  • 3.7 out of 5 stars (123 ratings)

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If He Had Been with Me

Written by: Laura Nowlin
Narrated by: Gina Rogers
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Publisher's Summary

An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA best seller is perfect for fans of Kasie West, All the Bright Places, and Dear Evan Hansen.

If he had been with me, everything would have been different....

Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.

Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.

That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.

But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways....

©2013, 2019 Laura Nowlin (P)2020 Tantor

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amazing book but saddest thing you’ll ever read

This is an amazing book and i listened to it on a
plane and i'm crying and everyone thinks there's
something wrong with me. So i highly recommend
that you don't listen to this in public. Also the
narrator is one of the best i've listened to. But again great book but it’ll make you cry your eyes out.

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Not worth the hype.

This book was rambly, predictable and not overly well done. It was pretty average and the ending was very rushed and obvious. I didn’t care for the main character, only tolerated her, and the rest of it was just teenaged thoughts and drama. It could have gone way deeper into her mental health and really showed us some triumphs, but it was just focused on an over dramatic teenaged romance.

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Loved this story!

Coming of age story. Sad and heartbreaking but a good story.

Always tell people you love them .

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Very good but so devastating

I was not expecting the end. I’m hurting. That was a really good book and a good listen, but whyyyy couldn’t it have had a happy ending omg

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Profound Love

Nowlin draws the reader in through thoughtfully written prose. A story of innocence and true love. A must read.

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Amazing read!

The first chapter hooked me, I was sad to see that the remainder of the book didn’t hold the same pace. The last few chapters picked back up, I only wished they dived a little deeper into but still a solid read!

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This book is everything

It is heartbreaking. It has been holding my heart in that sad nervous excitement. I had never read a book that captivated me like that.
And the narrator is the best I have ever listened too. She has perfect voice and tone. I’d love to find more books she has narrated.

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I could not stop listening

I have read some really good books in the last couple of months and this one is absolutely on my recommended list. As the book was finishing, I was already texting for of my book buddies to buy rent steel somehow acquire this read, the story was so engaging. The characters were so well developed, and the last couple of chapters gripped my heart.

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the hesrt break

loved the enitre book! the heart ache. the suspence. my heart is broken for all of the characters

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great

I really liked thus book. definitely keeps you on your toes and didn't expect alot of it. Definitely 10/10 book

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