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If He Had Been with Me
- Narrated by: Gina Rogers
- Length: 8 hrs and 37 mins
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Publisher's Summary
An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA best seller is perfect for fans of Kasie West, All the Bright Places, and Dear Evan Hansen.
If he had been with me, everything would have been different....
Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.
Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.
That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.
But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways....
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- Faith
- 2023-02-15
Very good but so devastating
I was not expecting the end. I’m hurting. That was a really good book and a good listen, but whyyyy couldn’t it have had a happy ending omg
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- Lisa Mansfield
- 2023-02-28
Profound Love
Nowlin draws the reader in through thoughtfully written prose. A story of innocence and true love. A must read.
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- Blair Penny
- 2023-03-11
Amazing read!
The first chapter hooked me, I was sad to see that the remainder of the book didn’t hold the same pace. The last few chapters picked back up, I only wished they dived a little deeper into but still a solid read!
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- Anonymous User
- 2024-08-03
Loved it
Best book ever
Good for teens
Slow but still good
Sad but still good
Loved it
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- Christa
- 2023-02-24
Loved this story!
Coming of age story. Sad and heartbreaking but a good story.
Always tell people you love them .
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- Nick Girard
- 2024-09-11
Devastated and loving it!
I listened to this in one day and couldn’t stop. That first chapter makes you want to know what’s going to happen, it seems slow, but you can’t stop listening cause you know there’s something… but THAT!!!! Oh my god, that is the standard to which I will hold every book moving forward!
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- Noura Abd
- 2023-03-06
amazing book but saddest thing you’ll ever read
This is an amazing book and i listened to it on a
plane and i'm crying and everyone thinks there's
something wrong with me. So i highly recommend
that you don't listen to this in public. Also the
narrator is one of the best i've listened to. But again great book but it’ll make you cry your eyes out.
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- Anonymous User
- 2023-05-02
Not worth the hype.
This book was rambly, predictable and not overly well done. It was pretty average and the ending was very rushed and obvious. I didn’t care for the main character, only tolerated her, and the rest of it was just teenaged thoughts and drama. It could have gone way deeper into her mental health and really showed us some triumphs, but it was just focused on an over dramatic teenaged romance.
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- Amazon Customer
- 2024-08-28
Loved!
I loved this book. The story and the narration were great but the story was heartbreaking. I listened to this book in one day, I just couldn’t stop listening.
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- Amazon Customer
- 2023-02-21
Really good
I enjoyed this book. Story was interesting and well written. I enjoyed the narrator, although found some of her voices a bit off. But for the most part narration was enjoyable to listen to. Great book.
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