Outofshapeworthlessloser
A Memoir of Figure Skating, F*cking Up, and Figuring It Out
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Gracie Gold
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Gracie Gold
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NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • A “piercing account” (The Wall Street Journal) of surviving as a young woman in a society that rewards appearances more than anything and demands perfection at all costs—especially if you’re an Olympic figure skater.
“A riveting memoir, which details her experience with an eating disorder, depression and her high-stakes career.”—People (Best Books to Read in February 2024)
When Gracie Gold stepped onto center stage (or ice, rather) as America’s sweetheart at the 2014 Sochi Olympics, she instantly became the face of America’s most beloved winter sport. Beautiful, blonde, Midwestern, and media-trained, she was suddenly being written up everywhere from The New Yorker to Teen Vogue to People and baking cookies with Taylor Swift.
But little did the public know what Gold was facing when the cameras were off, driven by the self-destructive voice inside that she calls “outofshapeworthlessloser.” In 2017, she entered treatment for what was publicly announced as an eating disorder and anxiety treatment but was, in reality, suicidal ideation. While Gold’s public star was rising, her private life was falling apart: Cracks within her family were widening, her bulimia was getting worse, and she became a survivor of sexual assault. The pressure of training for years with demanding coaches and growing up in a household that accepted nothing less than gold had finally taken its toll.
Now Gold reveals the exclusive and harrowing story of her struggles in and out of the pressure-packed world of elite figure skating: the battles with her family, her coaches, the powers-that-be at her federation, and her deteriorating mental health.
Outofshapeworthlessloser is not only a forceful reckoning from a world-class athlete but also an intimate memoir, told with unflinching honesty and stirring defiance.
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What the critics say
“Stunningly candid . . . The depth and breadth of the problems Gold reveals in the memoir stunned me. And the way she has been putting her life back together continues to impress.” —Phil Hersh
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- Anonymous User
- 2024-04-16
Honest and forthright
Great insight on what to embrace and what not to embrace. Her perspective is told through her experiences.
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- Shelley Hewins
- 2024-02-21
Brave and honest
Gracie Gold, I love your honesty and your full humanness in the telling of your story. You are so strong and brave. I hope that volunteers, officials, parents and athletes all read this book.
I have spent almost 50 years of my life with varying degrees of involvement with the Canadian figure skating system and I look forward to a Canadian stepping up to write the Canadian version of a similar story.
Thank you ❤️
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- CorineMoments
- 2024-02-26
Excellent book!
Thank you Gracie for so candidly sharing your story. I really enjoyed listening. Highly recommend to parents of young athletes especially in figure skating and gymnastics.
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- Dr. Amazon
- 2024-02-10
Alot to unpack here...
Thank you Gracie Gold for completely exposing yourself and baring your soul. I appreciate the truth about the sport I myself have seen personally, but no one talks about. From discussing eating disorders (much too prevalent yet never acknowledged in Figure Skating), trauma - both sexual and family related, suicide - this memoir has it all.
She discusses her training, coaches, competitions, the elation with personal successes and the devastating fall of a top athlete. Thank you for touching on doping in sport as well. Even though it is in the public eye due to recent events, I am glad it is not ignored. Best of luck in your coaching career, Grace.
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- Michelle Lee
- 2024-02-11
Raw and authentic, heartfelt story
A raw and authentic heartfelt story, read by the author. It will have you cheering, crying, laughing and wanting to give her a big hug.
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- Jessica F.
- 2024-03-07
A must read/listen.
Thank you Gracie for sharing your story and continuing to be yourself and a source of inspiration for people of all ages. It’s hard to describe how much I appreciated listening to your story and felt seen in my own battles. None of us are truly alone. Thank you!
A must listen or read for anyone especially in the world of competitive sports.
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- Anonymous User
- 2024-08-19
Whole Chapter Praising a Predator…
For someone who has been SA not sure why an entire chapter praises a predator. Major disservice to victims.
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