Still Learning
A Memoir
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India Oxenberg
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India Oxenberg
About this listen
Still Learning is India Oxenberg’s intimate, first-person account of how she was lured into and, seven years later, escaped from the NXIVM cult, DOS.
As the secret sorority within NXIVM's vast Ponzi network, DOS was created by Keith Raniere and his acolytes to serve as a source of "slaves" to Keith and the other “masters”. Despite the fantastical headlines, the focus of Still Learning reflects what many parents and age peers of India’s will recognize as a far more familiar 20-something conundrum - a new adult trying to discover who she is, and in the process second-guessing the advice of parents, concerned siblings, and close friends who prove to be all too right - about a romantic partner, a sharp turn off of a hard-won educational track, or a dangerous group like NXIVM. India’s is a surprisingly relatable “adulting” tale set amidst one of the most alarming news stories of the day, rich with data on warning signs that distinguish exploration from exploitation.
This is much more than a survival story; it's a deeply personal reflection on how to come out (or help a loved one come out) the other side intact, still hopeful, and remarkably adult.
©2020 India Oxenberg (P)2020 Audible, Inc.You may also enjoy...
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- Anonymous User
- 2021-01-14
Incredible story
I had previously heard Catherine's book about saving India from this cult and was riveted. I also am familiar with their family as I am a fan of Casper's. I lived hearing this from India's point of view.
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Overall5 out of 5 stars
- Anonymous User
- 2021-02-13
We are still learning.. together.
I started to cry when you shared the feeling of being free to eat peanut butter....its my comfort food as well when memories come flooding back from my cult life. I feel you explained the roller coaster emotions with clarity and dignity. I was a child in a cult and when I left I was an emotionally awkward adult trying to make sense of the world. I feared the world but was also in awe and couldn't wait to learn everything I can about being me. Thank you for sharing your story..❤
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- 2022-12-26
Vulnerable and honest
India opens the wounds of Nxvium and is vulnerable in sharing her truths with the listener. She admits her guilt and culpability in the cult and shares her deep but healing wounds after escaping. Enlightening and terrifying and well worth the listen.
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- Vi
- 2021-05-15
A different view on the topic after “reading” her mom’s book!
I listen to her mom’s book and then to hers. They both really complement each other.
She has a wonderful voice and I couldn’t stop listening. She is so brave to expose all of that.
Well written, read fantastically. A must listen or read to understand the complexe story of this sect.
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- Terry King
- 2021-03-20
An empathetic and caring memoir
India is a courageous and caring light who shared her most vulnerable “frog in water” journey into and out of a cult that was horrifically devaluing human life and cunningly so.
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- J. Cooper
- 2020-11-19
Incredible story of growth
As a middle aged lady listening to India's experience and growth was like listening to a daughter. I felt so filled with pride for her. I've read/podcast binged anything and everything on NXVIM as I have a special interest in cults, and I learned a lot from India's account. Well done! Excellent writing and narration.
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- Sylvia
- 2023-02-28
Riveting, Healing and Gracious
I couldn’t wait to get back to India’s life story. India’s book is a welcome healing salve for people who are making sense of similar experiences.
Her voice is gentle, and gracefully guide’s one through her eyes. I would seek more books read and written by her.
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- Ashley Schappert
- 2020-11-05
Real, Raw & unabashedly truthful...
While reading India’s story I felt myself healing from my own past experiences.
With every page I turned the author laid herself bare, she was able to depict her experiences in a way that could be relatable to any woman in any situation. What makes India Oxenbergs story different from the average woman’s story of abuse and rape is NOT that she was a part of a cult, it is that she had the courage and opportunity to tell her story on a international stage. Now that is character! To anyone who might hear this story and pass judgement & shame on this woman for her involvement and subsequent branding casts judgement on ALL women who have been manipulated into acting against their best interest in hopes of finding acceptance and clarity. Which is all of us.
I think we should be less preoccupied with asking why she joined and how she could let this happen to her and be more focused on the questions like
,how society and the institution meant to protect these women instead allowed groups like NXIVM/DOS/EPS to exist for so long.
But I will end with this. NXIVM didn’t ruin this woman’s life, she is going places no doubt about that!
Such a great listen.
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- Roberta W
- 2023-01-31
Insights into a bizarre cult
NXIVM was an absolutely bizarre cult, happening under our noses. Did it really all start with self development weekend workshops?!?
It is hard for anyone from the outside to understand young women, in the very recent past, subjecting themselves to being branded as part of their devotion to a cult (the creep was branding them with his initials!), so this book provides much needed insights as to how anyone could get to this point. It’s the direct account of one of those women, I can’t say I fully understand, but I can see the path that got them there. It’s a worthwhile listen.
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