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  • “Internship” From Hell at Torturous Christian Extremist Honor Academy

    “Internship” From Hell at Torturous Christian Extremist Honor Academy
    Nov 17 2025

    As a teenager, devoted to her faith, Carrie Saum felt being born a woman was a punishment. Her mother was a strongly devout Christian woman who implored on Carrie that if she didn’t go to Russia on a teen mission trip, Russians would go to Hell and their blood would be on her hands. These teen trips were mostly run by other young adults who put the kids in ill*gal and morally questionable situations. However, nothing was off the table when it came to showing your devotion to God. In fact, dying a martyr is what Carrie assumed would happen to her. She didn’t realize she had any other choice. Now she is committed to exposing the “Honor Academy” for what it is/was. A way to exploit teens for their time, money and labor, to create an army of unquestioning, obedient adults.

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    Chapter Marks

    00:00:00 Intro

    00:03:51 Carrie's part in the documentary

    00:08:15 Carrie's upbringing

    00:13:53 Acquire the Fire

    00:20:52 Carrie drops out of college to join the internship program

    00:28:58 What it was like when Carrie's parents moved out of state

    00:32:17 Carrie's time in Russia

    00:42:56 The Honor Academy

    00:55:36 Columbine

    00:59:24 ESOAL

    01:10:09 How the martyr mindset affected Carrie

    01:19:07 After deconstruction

    01:21:49 What brings Carrie joy

    01:23:24 Linda Listen

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    1 h et 26 min
  • Amy Duggar King’s Secret Life Behind The Camera

    Amy Duggar King’s Secret Life Behind The Camera
    Nov 14 2025

    Amy Duggar, cousin to the famous Duggar family from TLC’s “19 Kids and Counting” exposes what life was REALLY like on and off the big screen. Her own childhood was plagued by a narcissistic and cruel father who would constantly take her on a roller coaster of ups and downs. Her grandfather (Jim Bob & her mother’s father) was also a character that parents knew could not be alone with their kids. However, there was even a time in her childhood when her grandfather lived in her home. Today we zoom in on life in an abusive home, the chaos and the confusion, in contrast with the life of luxury on camera and what that did to her mental health.

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    Amy’s Book: Holy Disruptor: Shattering the Shiny Facade by Getting Louder with the Truth

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    1 h et 37 min
  • Amy Duggar King Opens Up: “Reality” TV with The Duggars, Her Contract, Josh Duggar, & Jim Bob’s Lies

    Amy Duggar King Opens Up: “Reality” TV with The Duggars, Her Contract, Josh Duggar, & Jim Bob’s Lies
    Nov 12 2025

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    Amy Duggar, cousin to the famous Duggar family from TLC’s “19 Kids and Counting” exposes what life was REALLY like on and off the big screen. Her own childhood was plagued by a narcissistic and cru*l father who would constantly take her on a roller coaster of ups and downs. Meanwhile, her uncle Jim Bob’s family seemed to have everything together. Perfectly behaved children combined with an ideal and picture perfect lifestyle left her desiring a home as loving and wholesome as theirs. However, once she was invited into their family on a more regular basis (when the producer saw money signs in Amy’s outspoken personality) the facade slowly faded when she realized her cousins were never allowed to have “negative feelings” or speak critically of other family members. Even if that meant sacrificing their own safety. She would learn the true character of one of her best friends and cousins, Josh Duggar; a secret that would shock the world.

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    Watch our LIVE with Amy answering your questions

    Amy’s Book: Holy Disruptor: Shattering the Shiny Facade by Getting Louder with the Truth

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    1 h et 19 min
  • Whistleblower Reveals “South African Prophet Preys on Rich White American Women”

    Whistleblower Reveals “South African Prophet Preys on Rich White American Women”
    Nov 10 2025
    Thembi Buthelezi came to America from South Africa, becoming very successful in New York City. Her sister back home was deeply involved in a cult there, who told her she could syphon her sister’s life through magic and sacrifice. Thembi’s life started falling apart the minute her sister arrived in her home and she knew something was wrong. Thembi distanced herself from her sister, went to ministerial school and ended up in Los Angeles at the famous mystical church called Agape. Little did she know, she would end up falling for the charms of a charismatic South African “Prophet” who was preaching at Agape on healing ancestral trauma. The same cult leader her sister had been involved in. A trip to Ghana to the cult headquarters would end up revealing a dark world riddled with secret sex magic and coercive techniques to trick white American women into giving up their marriages, fortunes and mind to the cult. The damage done took Thembi years as a buddhist nun to unravel and piece her life back together. Now, she is determined to warn everyone about this false prophet.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and Support ThembiYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@thembibuthelezi/Website: https://www.thembibuthelezi.comSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:12 Thembi Introduces Herself and Her Background00:08:50 Comparisons Between Churches in Africa vs America00:13:44 The Areas of Your Life The Cult Targets00:18:21 When Thembi Was Initially Targeted By the Cult & Her Sister's Involvement00:25:32 Thembi’s First Introductions to the Cult & Her Spiritual Journey00:34:09 Thembi’s First Introductions to the Leader of the Cult00:38:41 Beginning Initiations into the Cult & Recognizing Strange Behaviors00:43:23 What the Cult Leader Asked Thembi To Do - S*xual Rituals & Other Cult Practices00:48:08 More of the Witchcraft Practices Present in the Cult00:50:30 The Cult's Tactics to Increase Followers00:55:38 Sat*nic Practices Within the Cult00:59:07 The Goals of the Cult01:02:51 CW: Mentions of Human Sacr*fice, the Darker Aspects and Practices of the Cult01:10:01 CW: Mentions of Su*cide, How Thembi Escaped the Cult's Influence and Her Time as a Bhuddist Nun01:16:38 Thembi’s Healing and Beginning to Expose the Cult01:24:04 Thembi’s Life Today01:26:28 Final Thoughts and Linda ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
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    1 h et 31 min
  • Seventh Day Adventism: How My Adopted Mother Took Doctrine to a Dangerous Place

    Seventh Day Adventism: How My Adopted Mother Took Doctrine to a Dangerous Place
    Nov 7 2025

    Charlotte Hayes was adopted as a baby to Seventh-Day Adventist parents who used the doctrine to h*rm her in unimaginable ways. She was forced to eat raw vegan, not given adequate nutrients and kept dang*rously thin, while the rest of the family ate normally. On top of that, CSA started happening at age 7 and she was told it was to prepare her for being a wife. Charlotte will further discuss her former mother’s obsessions with the health doctrine of SDA and how she weap*nized against Charlotte.

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    Watch pt 1 of Charli's initial interview

    Watch pt 2 of Charli's initial interview

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    1 h et 3 min
  • Seventh-Day Adventism: Harrowing Escape… and Inevitable Return

    Seventh-Day Adventism: Harrowing Escape… and Inevitable Return
    Nov 5 2025

    Charlotte was adopted as a baby to Seventh Day Adventist parents who used the doctrine to harm her in unimaginable ways. More details on her childhood can be found in part one linked below. Finally, at 18 years old, she enlisted a couple friends through Snapchat to help her escape just days before her former father, who made threats on her life for exposing his abuse, returned home. With only a bag of clothes, an erased iPad and a notebook with handwritten contacts, she did her best to survive in a world she had been completely sheltered from. Including confronting her former parents in an attempt to get more of her belongings, then falling into another predatory living situation.

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    Chapter Markers

    00:00:00 Intro

    00:02:05 Recap

    00:03:38 Charlotte plans her escape

    00:19:39 Finding work after running away

    00:26:42 Returning to her old church

    00:28:46 CW r*pe

    00:32:57 Moving away from her strict diet

    00:35:06 Living with another secret pred*tor

    00:36:19 Confronting her former parents after escaping

    00:44:02 Deconstructing fear and shame

    00:50:25 Charlotte leaning into her s*xual preferences

    00:56:58 Meet Hadley

    00:57:29 What brings Charlotte joy now

    01:03:09 Linda, listen

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    1 h et 6 min
  • My Adopted Parents Exploited Seventh-Day Adventism to Do the Unspeakable

    My Adopted Parents Exploited Seventh-Day Adventism to Do the Unspeakable
    Nov 3 2025

    CW: CSA, rape. Charlotte Hayes was adopted as a baby to Seventh-Day Adventist parents who used the doctrine to harm her in unimaginable ways. She was forced to eat raw vegan, not given adequate nutrients and kept dangerously thin, while the rest of the family ate normally. On top of that, CSA started happening at age 7 and she was told it was to prepare her for being a wife. When signs of physical abuse caught the attention of her public school, they got CPS involved, but the system was a colossal failure and only made it worse at home. She even reported the violence to an SDA pastor who then reported it to the higher councils of the church, but they did nothing.

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    Chapter Markers

    00:00:00 Intro

    00:03:23 Charlotte’s adoption into an SDA family

    00:09:18 Strict upbringing

    00:15:21 Adopted to be h*rmed

    00:16:38 TW: CSA from her adopted father

    00:20:30 How purity culture at church mentally clashed with CSA at home

    00:25:46 Charlotte's experience in public school

    00:33:14 Teachers started to notice signs of ab*se

    00:42:23 Being gay in strict purity culture

    00:45:54 Experience at boarding school

    00:50:54 Washing each other's feet at school...

    00:54:08 Charlotte's breaking point

    01:02:21 Plotting the escape

    01:07:29 Linda listen

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    1 h et 9 min
  • Why My Jehovah’s Witness Parents Kept My Abuse Silent

    Why My Jehovah’s Witness Parents Kept My Abuse Silent
    Oct 31 2025

    CW: CSA. Jacinta LeGore was born and raised in the Jehovah’s Witnesses. After being forced to confess that she had been CSA’d, then subsequently punished for it, it lead her down a shame spiral. Feeling worthless, she decided to get married at 16 to hopefully heal the part of her that the Elders and her parents thought was “impure”. The marriage ended up being another painful situation which ended in being disfellowshipped. She was immediately cut off from her family and friends, with no real lifeline in the outside world.

    When Jacinta became pregnant, her parents expected to see the chiId, because a loophole states that if someone has never been baptized, one does not have to shun them. However, they were still actively shunning Jacinta, treating her less than human, so she cut off all contact. Jacinta’s parents threatened her with “grandparents’ legal rights” when she would no longer let them see her daughter, even though she was disfellowshipped and cut off herself. The final straw came when she picked up her daughter from her parents’ and the person who ab*sed her was there. Now she is navigating life, choosing to keep toxic relationships far from her and her daughter for her own mental health.

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    IG @piercingsbyjacintah

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    Chapter Markers


    00:00:00 Intro

    00:03:11 Jacinta’s Strict ChiIdhood in the JW's

    00:08:15 CW: CSA, Damaging Experiences as a ChiId

    00:13:23 CW: CSA, Jacinta’s Judicial Process experience

    00:19:30 Punishment & Choosing to Get Married at 16

    00:23:55 Life After Getting Married

    00:27:43 The End of Jacinta’s Marriage and Being Disfellowshipped

    00:34:10 Shunning Jacinta has Received From Her Parents

    00:38:21 Persecution Complex of High Control Groups

    00:42:10 The Aftermath of Setting Boundaries With Parents

    00:45:54 Deconstructing the JW's

    00:49:36 How Jacinta is doing now

    00:53:52 Linda, listen

    00:55:10 Final thoughts

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    57 min