'Give in. Surrender to me sweetheart. I'm looking after you.' 'I already have.' 'Then do it some more. You simply have to go farther, darling. I mean allow yourself to go farther. This is your time for complete surrender. I mean TOTALLY! We've gone so far and now you can't go back.' 'I don't want to go back.' 'I know. So it's become rather simple - you have to completely let go or we'll both be fucked, OK?' Metaphorically I mean., and nothing to do with Robin. Done in; messed up; wasted our big opportunity. Just like in Maharishi's Gita translation where Krishna tells Arjuna You have control of action, but not of the fruit of action.