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Narrated by:
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Michael Dean
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Zachary Johnson
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Written by:
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CE Ricci
About this listen
That’s the thing about hearts - like waves, they break too.
Grief.
I’ve never battled with the raw, debilitating pain that comes with it. Then a twist of fate hits me out of nowhere, and I can barely keep from drowning. It’s like weights tied to my ankles in the middle of a raging ocean. I’m helpless, with no way to swim back to the surface.
But fate is crueler still, bringing my stepbrother back for the first time in years.
Cannon never wanted this family. Especially me. Still, he’s always been my greatest desire. And my biggest weakness. He’s unattainable. Straight, engaged, and with a seemingly perfect life on the other side of the country. It’s something I’d do well to remember, yet when he stays, it’s so easy to forget.
In finding solace together, we mend what once was broken. This loss bonds us. Changes us. He’s become more than a brother or a lover. He’s my anchor.
So how am I supposed to keep my head above water when I’ll eventually lose him too?
Head Above Water is a stand-alone, full-length MM enemies-to-lovers stepbrother romance novel.
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- Chanelle Poulin
- 2023-09-21
My heart broke and grew all in one book
Head Above Water - C.E. Ricci
4/5 STARS 5/5 SPICE
OBSESSED!!!! So good. This took me a bit to get through because it broke my heart. It was so sad. I hate death and I don't even know why I picked this up thinking it was a good idea for me. Now while I was in my feels DEEP the whole time it was amazing. I just love this author. Honestly think she is my favorite author! Easton and Cannon were both addictive and the dynamic was taboo/forbidden love. I mean being in love with your stepbrother and then your parents get into a car crash that almost kills them. But also one of them was kicked out of the house and it's been 7 years. If you like sad books PICK THIS UP! The ending with the attic. My heart literally broke! I did cry over this book. Also so so so so spicy. As always they were going at it constantly! The spice was amazing at it up and left NO CRUMBS. I would always recommend any of C E Ricci's books at this point. The only reason this isn't 5 stars is because I don't like things that make me sad.
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- Ian
- 2024-08-14
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Great story with so many tender and heartbreaking moments. Excellent voice characterization that absolutely enhanced the storytelling.
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