In My Dreams I Hold a Knife
A Novel
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Ashley Winstead
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Six friends. One college reunion. One unsolved murder.
Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to her Southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see - confident, beautiful, indifferent. Not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather Shelby's murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she'd been closest to since freshman year.
But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette 10 years ago, and not everyone can let Heather's murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night - and the years' worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.
Told in racing dual timelines, with a dark campus setting and a darker look at friendship, love, obsession, and ambition, In My Dreams I Hold a Knife is an addictive, propulsive story.
©2021 Ashley Winstead (P)2022 TantorYou may also enjoy...
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- Sb
- 2023-08-04
Pretty good
I enjoyed the mystery of the story and different twists and turns but the consistent finger pointing back and forth got a bit tiring. Im not sure if we were meant to hate the main character, but I definitely did.
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- Heidi Lancaster
- 2022-08-23
5 stars
kept me guessing, and gave me a good adrenaline rush at the end. narrator was pleasant to listen to.
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- Christine Goncalves
- 2023-01-19
will keep you guessing till the end!
Another very entertaining read by Ashley Winstead! This Academia Thriller was a twisty hard to put down book. Jessica Miller attends her university reunion where her group of 6; Caro, Frankie, Mint, Courtney and Coop recall the night Heather was murdered. Each character unravels new secrets, betrayals, confessions start to spill... Murder mystery, love triangle, secrets and plenty of revenge; this page turner will keep you guessing right till the end.
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- Debbie
- 2022-12-07
In My Dreams I Hold A Knife
I like the book, very slow to get started (will read it again) good characters, good plot and a good ending.
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