Love as Always, Mum xxx
The true and terrible story of surviving a childhood with Fred and Rose West
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Julia Barrie
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Written by:
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Mae West
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Neil McKay
About this listen
'Mae, I mean this ... I'm not a good person and I let all you children down ...' Rose West, HM PRISON DURHAM
It has taken over 20 years for Mae West to find the perspective and strength to tell her remarkable story: one of an abusive, violent childhood, of her serial killer parents and how she has rebuilt her life in the shadow of their terrible crimes.
Through her own memories, research and the letters her mother wrote to her from prison, Mae shares her emotionally powerful account of her life as a West. From a toddler locked in the deathly basement to a teen fighting off the sexual advances of her father, Mae's story is one of survival. It also answers the questions: how do you come to terms with knowing your childhood bedroom was a graveyard? How do you accept the fact your parents sexually tortured, murdered and dismembered young women? How do you become a mother yourself when you're haunted by the knowledge that your own mother was a monster? Why were you spared and how do you escape the nightmare?©2018 Neil McKay (P)2018 Orion Publishing Group
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- Laura Moores
- 2022-08-16
Heartbreaking and Beautiful Memoir
The author gives a voice and perspective to a story that we’re already familiar with, which gave me a lot to think about. Mae West wrote a heartbreaking memoir of growing up in an incredibly abusive household, and showed remarkable insight and resilience into her relationships with her parents and their terrible crimes. A great listen.
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- Keegan
- 2022-09-01
Wow….
Although this is hard to get through at points and you find yourself gasping and closing your eyes tightly. I find this book insanely well written. I teared up quite a bit. I highly recommend you give this a listen if you have ever found yourself intrigued by what happened with Fred & Rose. I learned a lot about the background and even though it was rough to hear I’m glad I gave it a listen.
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- 2024-11-08
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Terrible narrative. Very boring. Not all understand UK slang. Too much back and forth. Waste of a credit!
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