Strung Out
One Last Hit and Other Lies That Nearly Killed Me
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Jayme Mattler
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Erin Khar
About this listen
“This is a story she needed to tell; and the rest of the country needs to listen.” (New York Times Book Review)
“This vital memoir will change how we look at the opioid crisis and how the media talks about it. A deeply moving and emotional read, Strung out challenges our preconceived ideas of what addiction looks like.” (Stephanie Land, New York Times best-selling author of MaidIn)
This deeply personal and illuminating memoir about her 15-year struggle with heroin, Khar sheds profound light on the opioid crisis and gives a voice to the over two million people in America currently battling with this addiction.
Growing up in LA, Erin Khar hid behind a picture-perfect childhood filled with excellent grades, a popular group of friends and horseback riding. After first experimenting with her grandmother’s expired painkillers, Khar started using heroin when she was thirteen. The drug allowed her to escape from pressures to be perfect and suppress all the heavy feelings she couldn’t understand.
This fiercely honest memoir explores how heroin shaped every aspect of her life for the next 15 years and details the various lies she told herself, and others, about her drug use. With enormous heart and wisdom, she shows how the shame and stigma surrounding addiction, which fuels denial and deceit, is so often what keeps addicts from getting help. There is no one path to recovery, and for Khar, it was in motherhood that she found the inner strength and self-forgiveness to quit heroin and fight for her life.
Strung Out is a life-affirming story of resilience while also a gripping investigation into the psychology of addiction and why people turn to opioids in the first place.
©2020 Erin Khar (P)2020 HarperAudioYou may also enjoy...
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What the critics say
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- Sheena
- 2024-08-05
A great account of addiction and recovery
I loved this book, but the narrator doing accents kinda took me out of it.
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- Shannon Day
- 2020-03-01
Hooked on Strung Out
Erin Khar's Strung Out is compelling, fascinating, and surprisingly relatable. Whether I was driving, washing dishes, or walking the dog, this audiobook was on. I even opted for headphones on a Friday night, in the presence of my family, which I would usually consider uncool but... I was hooked on Strung Out and I make no apologies.
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- Amazon Customer
- 2021-06-26
Could not put this book down!!!
This is a very raw story of a young girl they to adulthood and the many many many ups and downs in her life. The narrator was an EXCELLENT attribute to the telling of the story.
Well done. Glad you are safe.
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- anne marie
- 2023-05-30
Amazing!
Just amazing , thank you for sharing with us your story even tho it must have been hard to go back there !
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