Unspeakable
Surviving My Childhood and Finding My Voice
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Jessica Fisher
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Jessica Willis Fisher
About this listen
Read by the author.
Using the written word as her witness statement, Jessica Willis Fisher gives a lacerating portrait of a girl finding her voice after years of being silenced and an unforgettable story of risk and faith.
Growing up the eldest daughter in a large, highly controlled, fundamentalist Christian household, Jessica Willis was groomed to perform, and to conform to her father's disturbing and chaotic teachings. Cut off from anything unapproved by her father, Jessica was persistently curious about the outside world, always wondering what was normal or potentially dangerous about her upbringing.
When the Willis family rocketed into fame after their appearances on multiple televised talent competitions in 2014, Jessica and her family landed their own reality TV show and toured across the globe, singing and dancing for millions. The world loved this beautiful family of kids; young and vivacious, the Willis's presented themselves to be extraordinary and happy. But the older and wiser Jessica got, the more she had to face that what was going on behind closed doors would forever be escalating.
In this elegant, harrowing story of the manipulation and codependency that defines abusive family relationships, Jessica Willis Fisher lets us see the formative moments of her childhood through her eyes. Fisher's haunting coming-of-age memoir captures the beauty and ugliness of a young woman finding her way—filled with longing, fear, confusion, secrecy, and most importantly, hope for the future.
Unspeakable: Surviving My Childhood and Finding My Voice shares:
- An unflinching look at the manipulation and codependency that defines abusive family relationships
- The formative moments of Jessica's childhood through her eyes
- An unforgettable story of courage and strength
Beautifully written and monumental in its bravery, Fisher's story is proof that we can all become so much more that the things that happen to us.
©2022 Jessica Willis Fisher (P)2022 Thomas NelsonYou may also enjoy...
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- Kare
- 2022-11-18
Hard to listen to, but totally worth it!
Jessica's account of her life, abuse by her father and lack of protection from her mother really affected me. At one point in the story, I didn't think I could continue listening because the oppression seemed too great, and insurmountable. But, once Jessica was able to get away from her abusers, hope returned and I'm glad I got to hear her journey.
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- Anonymous User
- 2023-01-18
A tough listen
A tough listen at times it was heart wrenching to listen to the details and to know that I had. Seen this supposedly happy family on TV just a few years before
Amazing what can be concealed
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- Tiff
- 2023-02-08
She did an amazing job telling her truth.
It was such a good book. I loved the show and the their music. After everything that happened, it was nice to hear her story and how she is over coming her past. I couldn’t stop listening.
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- Emma01
- 2024-02-15
An absolutely harrowing but also inspiring story
Jessica does an amazing job of narrating her own story. The inclusion of her own music fits perfectly with her storytelling. Jessica you are so brave and you deserve the world!
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- Amazon Customer
- 2022-11-03
Well done
Jessica has written so well, her first hand account of trauma and healing. Pass it on to anyone you know who needs hope and healing from their own.
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- Amazon Customer
- 2023-11-23
Important & Helpful Book!
Worthy in every way. A great gift to the world. Healing. Brave author. So sorry for what you had to suffer through. Thanks for sharing.
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- Nicole
- 2023-05-18
Inspiring
Jessica's book is so heart wrenching and inspiring at the same time. So many families have been through this. I pray her book reaches the right people to give them courage to speak up and escape. I'm glad she narrated it because no one else could have done it justice.
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- Tiffany
- 2023-06-01
Couldn’t put it down!
This book was not only beautifully and painfully written, but it aided an immense amount in my own healing journey, as another person who was that 1in 4 statistic.
Thank-you Jessica for your vulnerability, strength, and bravery in sharing your healing journey. I will be forever grateful that you shared to aid in your healing, and in others.
Here’s to your next chapter in life. <3
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